what exactly is love?
...
what it is.
let it be.
maybe i shld grow or i am not used to it.
What shld i do now.
tears are non-stop.
What shld i do.
what shld i do.
Get over it?
Can't hardly see u now.
1 week.
Not even 10 sentences.
Whatever i say, u duwan to hear.
I am so hopeless.
Whats the point here where no one tries to hear what i say when i nid them the most.
Just lock myself and cry in here.
Try to act i am ok.
Try to act i am not angry when u dun reply.
Try to act calm when u dun even wan to hear wad i say.
Try to act i am ok when i am not with you all.
Try to act everything is ok to me.
Try to act i am good in school.
Try to act i dun mind if u dun tok to me.
Try to act its ok when i dun see u for 2 days.
Try to act everything is fine for me.
Try to act i dun care even if u dun care for me.
Try to act as i am with my friends and i love them and doesnt mind when i am with you all.
Try to act i am so ok and i love my bed and i enjoy my world.
Try to act i am grateful when u just bought spaghetti for me.
Try to act everything seems so the ways they are.
Do u all feel so good or dun even mind when i am not even with you all.

I feel so sucky.
I tot i was lucky to be here.
I tot everything would be fine when it is not.
I can feel evrything of me is filled with tears.
I am so broken.
I finally realised i can only love myself.

I hate everything.
Filled in this world with everything i want and left out with the biggest thing i needed the most.

I have to be loving myself.
Telling lies that things will get better.
Telling myself it will be over when it is getting worst.
I feel i am dying.
I feel i am relli dying.
I hate all of ur friends.
I hate beers and coffee shops.
I finally shed all my loneliness.