maybe ONEDAY, i might just leave peacefully without any footsteps.
I was thinking whether I should be leaving peacefully or with lots of noise.
Basically according to my character, I belong to the more quiet type.
Actually I can be that talkative when faced to different friends.
I do not really mix with a person that passionately, or share my secrets with him/her.
I can't accept the way a person is until I know him/her for about few years or wait till someone reveals their tails.
I'm not like somebody else. I'm not like you.
I somehow find it hard to accept someone who cannot accept another person else. Vice versa. Something just always lies behind. I can't be that entertain-tive.
Sometimes I hate to say it, but when I say it, I guess it doesnt make a difference, instead worst. After knowing, do they give a damn. damn. damn. damn. damn you.
Call me what you like, I'm not a hypocrite, I face myself, face up to reality.

Ok, I shall not let any of my emotions affect things in life, or make it hard.

Shit, My hair is short, and I'm not going back to primary school until it grows.
I'm considering long hairs after this hair-cut.
I'm tired, all along this journey.
Frowns more than Smiles.


But, HEY! this is my life.
Most probably, we are destined to meet but not to be together.
I do not know where I got this feeling but I hated this feeling.
To be true, I hated the whole process, in fact it changes everything- your and my point.
The truth always lies behind faces.
I hope you doesnt mean any ill intentions behind it- despise, snigger or even backstabbing.
I hope the truth are just lies, pure lies, pure intentions.
It came that you wasn't like this when working with the same people.
In fact, I don't understand the meaning behind it.
Things are changing and I'm not lying.
I don't even dare look at you during the whole process.
I din even expect the thing to change us.
I'm being thrown away, left out.
It's obvious, and I won't say it out.
I can go away like a soul, nice, kind , lonely soul.
Even souls has feelings.
Selfishness along the way.
How tense it was, or didn't you notice it?


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I hope I could forget everything.
I could, yes, tried my best.
How different we are from yesterday.
In one blink of eye, you were so much different.
Changed in the sense of your attitude towards life.
Yes, I must admit. You weren't different when you were to me as a friend.
Yes, good friends we are, still that good friends as yesterday and as today.
You seemed to forget your real point in living.
Not walking into the wrong road, but the right one.
I tried my best to talk in, hmmm or rather not.
Not sure what to handle with you.
Yes, you are my friend and I do not want you to end up, cause I know you are not stupid
and you know what might happen if you continue.
YES, I must admit you are intelligent, bright, smart.
I've always believe that you know what you are doing, you are not a kid but an adult, you know how you goes on with life, but I just hope you doesnt drop further away from us.

Yes, you remain my friend_ at least I really do love you as a friend in this school.

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their school is around the flats

FRIDAY

I went to give our jian tie bu to the PEICAI SECONDARY SCHOOl.
Yeah, we see or din we see renfred... its up to you to guess. : )
It's FUN.
The people there are quite friendly. Good impression :)
After that we boarded bus 53 to junction 8 to play play eat eat window shopping.
We ate the Ramen noodles and now oweing joyce big pile of $$$.
We took neoprints thus oweing meiling money too.
We also owe Mdm Yang $$$.
It's sad that they owe me $$$.
i think i would grab the neoprints from meiling since she have a scanner.


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our ramen.














At night, I went to MUSTAFA.
It's midnight shopping for all the daily necessities.
It was huge, we walked and shopped but still couldnt manage to finish shopping the whole shopping centre.
I bought some maker pens and drawing blocks.
I love FRIDAY.
闭上眼, 聆听黑夜.

你听到什么?

寂寞, 快乐, 伤悲, ...

还是什么都听不到.

这才发现黑夜好真实, 没虚伪, 虚假.

生活上多了一份力量- 勇敢.

也许密密麻麻的问题, 有的没的烦恼都是自找.

想放下包袱却犹豫了三番五次.

终是认为负担不起后果.

其实, 我们缺乏勇气面对问题.

逃避不是问题, 自己清醒的很.

勇气是上地的赐物还是一种风?

我拼了命想得到你却发现你已飘走.

在我手里的, 只不过是空气.

若我有了你, 将是什么滋味?
Bitch is a form of communication.
This thought suddenly just occurs in my mind.
Take a look at a different perspective angle.
Bitching can just help you in better communication, build more relationships.
Government has been pushing the younger generation to interact more and communicate.
It's time to bitch!

Ok, all along i'm crapping.
This summmer, all rather this AUGUST is totally a wretched month for me.
I just lost my way, how can I not be?
I'm the slack-kind-of-a-thing.
My english totally rot, that I wish to just cry it out loud.
My english teacher is useless but on the other hand, I am useless too.
No point blaming her when I got 2 1/2 for my comprehension, further more its not counted in the CAII.
It just came upon me that I might be some useless or rubbish of this society.
I'm so vulnerable in handling every matter- emotions.
I'm just wondering what can I excel in?

MOE keeps emphasizing on how good they provide to the students but not yet to consider how the students feel?
Did they ever ask if we are happy with out environment, teachers and school or even with subjects?
Yeah, I know its compulsory and I'm not the only one battling in this field, so whats make the big deal.

Ok, It might be the future that changes us.
With improvement, high technology, how are we going to survive with the high quality standard of living?
We do jobs, unnecessary out of our interests but out of money.
Good pay means a good life.
Whats the point of doing something you like, and earning little pay while others living a good life with such high pay?
The thing is changing in everyone, our personality.
One day, we might just choose money over what we are keen in.
Why don't the government just see this?
Parents have been stressing on ocupations like doctors, lawyers and e.g (high pay)
Did they ever mention something like artist, fashion designers, etc...


We might one day change but when ...

Can we let this world free of sufferings?

LEt this be a better world.
I miss the good old times.





I am falling apart.
I'm so totally stressed out that I feel like killing myself.
However, I did went out to relieve some stress off. =D
I met LSF, Rachel. There is always something happening between 3 of us.
Dumb neoprints, they refused to believe in me or I really sound like I'm lying.
I did turn out well. XD A punishment to them, I'm childish!!!

I did a couple of thing the previous week.
I'm addicted to the night life! =)
I managed to watch click- quite saddening, treasure your family.
I managed to watch some fireworks- only 1 show, :((
I managed to eat steamboat with my family.- ok it was just a bite.
I managed to past national day- not much of a deal.
I managed to go clarke quay- sat inside the boat, imagine I am some sort in the eighties, ok im drifiting apart. I went for the boat ride.
I managed to past TALENTIME.- it was fun with all those cheerings of the supporters :)
I managed to go junction 8.- just bought a t-shirt.
I managed to eat some chicken rice introduced by the television programme-exaggerating.
I managed to go out with shufeng and Rachel for some neoprints session.-believe in me X)
I managed to dine out and chatted with them :)


Quite a lot of enjoyment... haha wait till you see the list of ' I did not manage to '.
I did not manage to finish a lot of homework, therefore I'm right here.
Ok, I just hit my head.

Stop right here!

I miss the beaches.

I somehow managed to upload this photo.

Awesome fireworks, except its too fast.

I didnt catch anything that makes me perked up, only at the end where most of the fireworks burst out like some meteor rain?

A photo I taken which was considered better than the rest.

I don't think I want to take shots of fireworks again.

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I'm back to school!!! Of course, with some dragging of feets, cursings, etc...

That teacher was pinning all his questions on me, I don't know what is Rational alright!

That old haggard woman made us write compo, fine! She happy, I happy, everyone happy.

Im SICK.

I was sms-ing her yesterday when we suddenly reminisce of the past in sembawang.
Aiya, it was obviously devastating and despondent.
Everything just change in a blink of eyes.
Yet we could just treasure everything we used to have.
Sembawang just holds too many memories for us.
Yet she couldnt understand the true self behind our intentions.
The invisible mask in her mind strongly diverting the truth behind our faces.
Our real concerns just seemed like a strong wind passing her.
Do we seem like we are some souls passing you?
The complex thing in everyone's mind still recollecting the awful memories created by our own mouths.
The thing once shared seemed nothing now.
LEt it go, is just too hard for her to accept how we stepped in.
Morever we started with our mouths, thus shall it stop at our mouths.

Within everyone heart, you know, I know, We know.

The smile we use to have all turn to fouls and grudge.
The laughter were once so merrily, but now in a state of embarrassment.
The classroom we once knew, somewhat become battlefield.
The hatred that don't used to be, live up now.
The concern that holds real meaning, only meant hypocrite.
The bond we share just disappear.
2 years. Neither quick nor slow.

2years, its enough to burn our friendship away.
The ashes are irreversible.
Soon the wind carried us like how seeds are dispersed.
Some flowed together, whilst some spread alone.
So near, yet so far.
If the friendship sticks like glue, what are we?

Do friendship reveals their true nature of human being?
The personailty that we mould to become or the selfless thinking on one side?
Time flows, and friendship don't wait.

What in the end, is just a dream waiting for us to forget the beautiful past which we all put in heart.