Sometimes, my world seems to be spinning and spinning and spinning non-stop. I cannot balance myself and i can feel myself holding tight to the earth. I may fall anytime if i loose my hand. I got my limit, i can't feel anything but in my heart its different. Mixed emotions dancing around me. It doesn' t matter anymore. I believe in myself and i know i can. But for now, i don't feel like, i know myself very well. I have to push but i can't. I kept telling myself i can, you can, But it seems impossible. I love procrastinating and i know clearly in my mind it is wrong. Nobody like procrastinating, including myself. I am really tired. I hope i can faint and send to the hospital and then i recover and get back to the old shuting. I am sick of everything in my life.

I feel scared tomorrow. Am i running away from reality, i know very well myself, i am. I didn't want to get back to the past and remember that frightful months. I stopped typing. My body is protesting and there is nothing i can do. I am afraid tomorrow would turns out to be scary. I don't like it. I hate it. I feel stressful and i am not sure what i should do. I sleep early now as i feel my eyelids dropping down anytime. A few time.

I know i can, i have to face it.

FACE IT.
bravely.
bravely.
i have to.