It seems like a breeze.
It past me like a dream.
It past me like a ghost.

ONE year had just pass.

my achievement?

ZERO.

I feel sad this year and i feel sad today.
I wish for a better 2006.

I realised a lot this single year which changed my entire thinking and my life.
Let's make a review over this particular sad year.

I was crushed. Entered to this miserable school. Hated by some people. Relationship stumbled upon. Friendship was destroyed. True feelings shown. Teachers are cruel creatures. I am not a pet. I am unlike others. I was seen by mrs sim then miss vijay then mrs choo. Complained by every single then hated me.Fake smiles.Hypocrite everywhere.Trust lost.Thrown back to the back. Play til tears dropped.You dun care. I cried til i dun feel bitterness in my tears.No way of turning back. I wanted but... . Regretted in end but too late.

This is a short review. You wun understand. Neither would you want to understand.Sometimes, i feel this world is too pathetic. We all learn to shed tears, but when did we ever think of being happy. In this miserable year -2005, I finally realised my yps motto is so useful. Do our BEST and be the BEST. I will remember this forever and i never remembered my cchy vision or whatever. I feel i am useless. I did not achiever anything that is making me feel proud over it. I only know remorsful and i feel i am using tears to wash my face everyday. I feel i am tired, i am sick. I am really tired. We learn to be too sad, too too sad. We don find happiness as we never though of it. Til now, i feel i am really very sad of my everything.

In my years of cchy, i really feel like demolishing this school. I feel sad of this school. I feel irritated and feel hatred only in this school. To me, it seems going to hell from monday to friday. I feel my emotions and my spirit being tortured. Half of my body is in the coffin. Thanks to my school. I really feel i made a big and wrong mistake. MISTAKE. a grave one. I did not expected my result. Did i ask for too much? No, i wasn't. It was all my fault. Mine. I was too much. It was too much for me. I feel i may collaspe anytime and moment. I hear my heart tearing apart. I hear my heartbeat jumping so fast so clear. In my world, i cant find love in my dictionary. I suffered and i decided this is mine problem. I should just throw every memory of cchy that caused me into the last century. Close my eyes. Open my arms. Welcome 2006. Go to damn hell !!!

I played too much. It changed everything. Sec 1 isnt just sec 1. It is a change of my thinking. I should study more instead of play more. Slack until u know. Play until u die. What if i collaspe halfway? Everyone feels liddat too???

there is only one song to describe me now.
FENG KUANG SHI JIE.

i regretted my 13.
13 totally ripped off.
2 more weeks and i can cancel 13 from my stupid life.

SUCKER 13 get lost !!!
13 sucks....!!!!

GET LOST and dun ever come back again.

NOW
i would sleep and forget everything.

( the above are just my thinking and it doesnt harms or spoils the school reputation.
They are just part of my way of shouting my voices out and way of expressing myself.)