growing up is part of everyone life.
we depends on our parents and sooner or later we have to rely on ourselves.
sometimes, we are not sure of whether we are growing up.
we ask ourselves,"AM I ?"
i ask myself.
and could not get a better answer and i am still getting not used to it.
i tried and tried.

Last saturday, i was getting out with sinta to buy my CNY clothes. We spent a few hours and i only bought myself a shirt out of the force-ation of sinta. Am i too dependable on my parents that i couldnt get my own things. that was the first time, i realised. that was the first time, i bought myself a shirt. I took a whole time to take a decision and run over 2 places. Am i that sacarstic? Not independent enough... I realised lots from this experience that i am not independent. We sometime reply too much on parents. I felt lost for the first time. Really lost.
Do everyone get over this? Sometimes, i feel i am a little girl living in my own world. Growing up isn't easy. Get over soon abt this. I really wonder if i can grow up...