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bend smile.
Posted on: 2006-02-09
Posted at: 20:55
Posted at: 20:55
A BEND (downwards) SMILE
I want to play a game called hide and seek.
Nobody can find me.
I hide my feelings and make sure no one finds out.
I want to play a game called you spin rounds.
Everyone spinning around and spinning and spinning.
Everyone only cares for themselves.
Nobody ever wants to dig out someone heart and use a microscope to observe it.
Outside is always a fake look, inside is always a different look.
We are living in such a chaotic world.
Things has changed.
Love can never be found in dictionary anymore.
Nobody ever can put it there again.
Everyone lost to love.
Love.
Melancholy filed the air. Listless spirit. Growing silence. Lost directions.
I am real lost in this world. I cannot see the true-self of everyone. I don't know what you are thinking. I feel irritated facing this kind of life. Sorry for everything, being so listless and looking so gloomy today.( i am not gloomy bear) Treating as if i am a useless bug in this school, not leaving a trail of impression on anyone. Not anything i can feel proud off. Looking at everywhere, find no one reliable. Treated as if i am a slave, asked to do chores. Trust become pure lies. Everything changed in a nick of time. Century seems as if they passed. Stab through my heart, with blood dripping into my throat. Nobody sees the agony in me. I seemed to be alright, I'm not. I tried to make a noise but no one hears me. Rain drops seemed to cry for me. Nothing gona be back right again. They are in a messed up pieces. Who can put the pieces back together again?
Had a bad day. I was thinking of the unhappy home economics. I am currently stucked in this scuking class i call-2H. First, i was pushed around and then to someone. Cooked unhappily. Why am i always the one washing the dishes. Why someone has to mess up? Although my cooking isn't that great, at least i put in my effort in helping cutting something right? Come and cut those potatoes and try if you can do it like the way i do it. Not getting to eat it. I am going to throw all the bastard food into the chute right after i step out of the door. I feel like an unwanted food in the class. Why am i stucked upon here.
We had the usual assembly and there were 2 musciians or whatever came to perform. It was marvelous but no one really wants to enjoy it as i can hear the whispering, people seeing comics, talking happily away and sleeping. This is from my view.
After this we had the house meeting. BLUE HOUSE ROCKS. Dun look at blue house from the outside, we seems quiet but then i think at the sports day, we will show our real power to other houses. Hope so. The red house was unfair as they were using the mics, so LOUD. Scared we cannot hear like that.
Then we went to BK with liqiu, sinta and weiying to eat and followed up by the - chat along session. This is a procedure which we follows at BK. I was unlucky to have my button dropped out. I had this listless mood. I was swept over by sadness.
CRAZY.WORLD.
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