I was pondering where is my goal?
Where is my everything???

It was then i realised i am so vulnerable.
I am so vulnerable to many things.
I am not invincible.
I fall easily.

I confess that i am so insercure about how my marks is.
I am such a failure in everything.
I don't excel in english neither nor chinese.
I don't understand how I survive in future.

Things that come out from your mouth isn't the same as your actions.

I knew that I changed a lot.
I am not afraid of how my marks is ... .
I am not myself anymore.
All the problems that not used to be, crops up.

It's the feeling that is different.
It's the ME that differs.
It's such a dramatic change.

I can't remember of any problems I had in Primary.
But I can recall everything I worry in secondary.
I can remember how it is.
I cant compile them into words.
I have so much so much so much to worry about.
Results, friends, coping with homework, teachers.
It was then I realised, not only me but EVERYONE having a change in them.

I can't remember how was it like but, I do not want to.
It is the life that change us.
JEALOUSY.
It is this only word that changes friendship.
10 years of friendship may be just broken by this word.

We are living in such a chaotic life, and how presto we are travelling at.
It seemed that a hundred days passed but MEANGLESS.
Everyday, We are living in this kind of world that we lost the meaning of living.

What is the real meaning life?
I cannot define it.
I cannot describe it.

I have lost it.

I have completely lost the sense of why I am alive and leading such a life.
Over the past few months, I know everything is senseless.
I can't remember what good things I have done.
What's the meaning of IT?

It seemed that we past life each day, not knowing where we are.
Why are we like that?

...

I cant't explain.