Theres a midst infront of me.
I do not know what to do with myself.
I wish to fly away from this disrupting world.
Why am I here?
This world is so stressful, why cant we live happily.
Why must we have so many things to worry about?
Why must we, why must we?
Why do god want us here?
Why do we have to go through so many things?
Why must you create brain in human?
Greed, selfishness- I see so many dark sides of human.
It's the nature, and that makes us stronger.
Stronger?

Ok, i realised i really cannot get to work after I have SWITCH-ed on the pc.
Irked me sia.

Ok, LSF is RIGHT, i shouldnt fret over compo and mistook JOHAN for JOHOR or the recipent brother. It makes me real upset. WTH. WTH. WTF. AND I TELL YOU I REALLY SAW IT AS BROTHER!!! how come!?!??! I'm REAL UPSET larhs. Then at night, I had this intolerable stomach ache after me nap. I flunked my LIFE that day! :(

Nevermind how distressed I was, I had fun after the ORAL.
After it I was a million or BILLION upset, but just get over it by playing it with joyce and liqiu.
We were so damn bored waiting for the oral time to pass, therefore we GOSSIPED here and there. I was like hahahas our school way is so cool with no people so we played around like nobody.

FUN!!!

Look at joyce blog for more photos and info - www.-paintedfence.blogspot.com

Today I went out to celebrate my mother and father friends, also my neighbour daughter's birthday at the upper thomson- some prata place.
After that went to the reservoir for some walk.
Oh yeah, then the uncle said that when he was young, he and his friends would bring torches and they would go around the cars, counting 123 and then jump out to scare all those couples in the car. Interesting sia.

-ok, something is meant for you, its for you.
something not meant for you, its not for you.
Hais, i just missed a lot of chances.
I did not manage to get into the small reporter.
I admit my chinese compo isn't that GREAT.
I did not manage to go to taiwan.
I admit I am not good enough.
Alright, I am I am I am not good enough.
Actually, if I say I am so brave, I'm just acting.
I'm really very sad, sad until I feel numbless but I know I'm hiding my feelings.
I hated the teacher who kicked me out.
I hated when people mentioned about Taiwan.
I hated it.
Nobody can really see how disappointed I am.
Nobody really understands how I feel deep inside.

So people please, try not to say Taiwan this word as much as possible.
Please god help me hide the truth and give me the warmth I needed.
I do not think you are unfair, because there is people less fortunate than me.

In the past, I didnt know what it is like to cry because I am sad deep in my heart.
In the past, I cried because my mother used to beat me up- its physical pain.
In the past, I only remember the happy moments I used to have.
In the past, I feel warmth.
When I grow up, I only know how to be sad.
When I grow up, I only know how many things I missed out.
When I grow up, I feel so cold, colder like minus 100 degrees.
When I grow up, I see things so differently with tears.

3.33am, I think everything was understood.
I cried out so my tears washed away my midst.
Nobody knows actually I'm that vulnerable.