BECAUSE FLOORBALL RULES!
I'M TOTALLY IN LOVE WITH IT! :)


OH MY! Today something awful happened! I was feeling real real real, deep down lousy over school and etc...
On the way home in bus, I sat down and a cute, little Indian boy in front of me, kicked my legs! How irritating! I totally felt like a sore loser, like somehow I'm not even worthy to live on this earth! Now I can't deny I feel somehow lonely, scared. Sinren is busy with her GPP. Shrugs! And Tzy Huoy studies in the East? A million miles apart from me! I can't even feel that they are there anymore!

Forlorn is the right word to describe what I'm feeling now! Though kind of cranky!

1.	desolate or dreary; unhappy or miserable, as in feeling, condition, or appearance.

2.	lonely and sad; forsaken.

3.	expressive of hopelessness; despairing: forlorn glances.

4.	bereft; destitute: forlorn of comfort.

O Lord, is there a purpose for me, breathing precious air to keep me alive? And you answered: Your purpose is me! I stood in the desert, shouting out to you, can you hear my prayers? Can you answer them? O Lord, is there anything even hard for you to do? Sometimes, I can't feel your presence. You told me to rest in you during times like this, but I cant seemed to do so. My burdens, can you take all of them away? As I shout out and desires for you, surely you would come and bring me away! So what could I say? And what could I do? But offer this heart O god, completely to you. So I'll stand with arms high and heart abandoned. In awe of the one who gave it all! Can you tell me what to do? I fall at my knees, feeling weary. Can you save me, I'm nothing, really nothing. Your grace and mercy! SALVATION is HERE!

You stood before creation
Eternity within Your hand
You spoke the earth into motion
My soul now to stand

You stood before my failure
Carried the Cross for my shame
My sin weighed upon Your shoulders
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I'll walk upon salvation
Your Spirit alive in me
This life to declare Your promise
My soul now to stand

So what can I say
What can I do
But offer this heart O God
Completely to You

So I’ll stand
With arms high and heart abandoned
In awe of the One who gave it all

So I’ll stand
My soul Lord to You surrendered
All I am is Yours

This song touched me a lot today!
Shall share it! (:

朋友，家人， 情人。

朋友：
存在的友谊是无法用话语去形容的。
刚刚翻开一些旧的卡片，真的真的很感动。
里头的字，很珍贵。
我们增经无邪的做出疯狂的举动，沙里傻气的那种冲动，执著的热诚， 懒懒散散的态度，对世界报着希望，但是又常发牢骚， 埋怨它对我们有多么不公平， 。 。 。
有一位友人那么写道：‘或许不习惯，不熟悉，感到彷徨，害怕， 难过。。。， 但这就是人生，不是吗？’。
很喜欢这句话！ 那么贴切，那么真实。初次来到中一，其实也是这一份感觉，即彷徨又害怕！最后，还不是熬出头来！结果，又讨厌要离别的心情，因为我们又要面对不熟悉的环境，人， 然后从头接受它，习惯它， 勇敢的面对未来。。。
谢谢你给过我的，因为我们会永远留在彼此的心中。

家人：
今天，我参加了一年一度的奖学金。
第一年，爷爷不再和我一起出现。
当我以为我可以很勇敢的忘记，我却做不到。
心头有很多画面涌上心头，一时无法清醒。
看到在一旁的父亲， 默默地流着泪。
我却无法安慰。
这是我才了解这种心情。。。
当身旁的人都在热热闹闹的庆祝，你却一人默默默默的在伤心。
我想他感到害怕，孤独，因为很多事都不变，人却已经不在。
那熟悉的场景缺少了熟悉的背影。

情人：
增经得增经。那时的我们，是否还记得那种感觉。。。
我想它带来的是个不好的回忆所以你不想再提，不想再和它有任何的瓜葛。
看到我时，会打个招呼吗？
其实我不在乎尴尬，因为关心一个人并不需要情人才可以那么做。
我想我们都各退一步，是你认为最好的结果。

全世界都停电.

DAMN DAMN DAMN!
ALL I WANT TO DO IS TO SCREAM! I JUST WANT TO SPEND ALL MY MONEY AND MAKE MYSELF HAPPY AGAIN!SINNER. YES I AM.I DISLIKE SCHOOL, SO WHAT? YES I'M STILL A ROCK STAR!I JUST CAN'T BUTTRY TO HATE EVERYONE!YES YES YES I'M A WEIRDO.I'M STUPID. AND I'M UNSOCIABLE. DEEMED LOSER. UNFIT. OHH WHATEVER.I'M NOT MYSELF ANYMORE. A SOUL IN A DEAD BODY.I CANT SEE MY REAL SELF ANYMORE, AND I'M TRUTHFUL ABOUT IT.I DON'T KNOW WHY U GUYS ARE DOING THIS TO ME.YEAH I'M NUTS, ITS MYSELF, ME, MYSELF, ME I AM MY OWN PROBLEM.I NEED TO STRESS, I'M JUST ANOTHER DUMB PERSON, I CANT DO MATHS,I CANT DO CHEMISTRY, I CANT DO CHINESE LITERATURE, I CANT TO ECONOMICS.OH YEAHS AND I FAILED EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING. EVERYTHING. THAT'S WHY. PRECISELY. I CANT TALK, NO, COMMUNICATE WELL WITH EVERYONE. I FEEL SO NOT MYSELF. IM LOST. FCUKING LOST. MY HEART IS NOT HAPPY. I FEEL SO OUTCAST, OUT OF PLACE, DESPISED UPON. YEAH IM DUMB IM DUMB. WHATEVER YOU CAN SEE. YOU CAN DO YOUR OWN 100TH TUTORIAL IF YOU WANT. I DO IT AT MY OWN PACE. I PLAY IT AT MY OWN. I LOVE MY OWN PACE. I DONT SEE A WRONG IN IT. YES. IM HAVING A HEADACHE. MY MENSTRUAL CRAMP IS KILLING ME. MY PI IS KILLING ME. I CAN FEEL A FCUK. YOU DONT SEE THE REAL ME. GOD IM REAL SAD. :( OHH, IS IT TRUE THAT I WILL SPEND HOW IT WILL BE LIKE FOR THE REST OF MY 2 YEARS! DEAR GOD, IM A WRETCHED, SAVE ME! TEL ME WHY. I DREAD GOING TO SCHOOL. I DONT DENY I REALLY HATE IT A LOT. AND WORST WORST IS WHEN ALL OF MY FRIENDS ARE MOVING FORWARD. THEY GET ALONG WELL WITH THEIR PEERS. THEIR FRIENDS LOVE THEM. THEIR LIFES ARE FORWARDING. I AM BACKSLIDING. TRUE. MY HEART IS LEFT BEHIND. I'M TRYING TO FIND MY WAY BACK HOME. IM SO LOST AND MY HEART IS SEEKING FOR THE TRUTH. THE REAL HEART. I'VE BEEN ROAMING AROUND TOO LONG, TRYING TO FIND MY WAY BACK HOME. I'VE LOST MY HEART. A PASSION HEART FOR LIFE. IT'S WORST THAN EVER. I FEEL IM BEING LEFT BEHIND BY THE WORLD. I DONT DENY. I DONT WANT TO DISAPPOINT MY FAMILY. BUT SEROUSLY AM I RIGHT. IM LIVING A LIFE OF HELL. EVERYDAY I JUST WISH TO GO OUT, RELAXED ALL MY WAY UNTIL I AM SATISFIED. I FEEL SO DISHEARTED EVERY SINGLE SINGLE DAY. A TORTURE. I KNOW AS I TYPE MY EYELIDS ARE DROPPING. I CANT HELP BUT RANTS ALL WHAT I FEEL IN MY HEART. I'VE BEEN HIDING TOO MANY TRUTH AND FEELINGS. I AC, YES AS IF IM HELL ALRIGH TIN SCHOOL AND I'M OK WITH YOU GUYS NOT TALKING. AND ME NOT TALKING AND ME LEFT BEHIND EVERY SINGLE THING. EVERYDAY WORRYING NOBODY SITS WITH ME, NOBODY WANTS TO TALK TO ME. NOBODY WANTS TO BE FRIEND WITH ME. EVERYDAY EVERYDAY EVERYDAY IM SCARED AND LONELY AND I FEEL MORONIC STUPID COMING TO THIS PLACE. YES ITS EVEN WORST WHEN YOU'RE THE ONLY ONE LEFT BEHIND. EVERYDAY I GO PLACES, I WORRY I HAD NOBODY TO BE WITH. EVEN THE ONE I MAKE FRIENDS WITH LEFT ME. HOW IT FEELS? I DONT KNOW. NUMB NUMB NUMB. YES WHAT NUMB. IM NOT THAT ME ANYMORE. PRICKS ME AND NO BLOOD COMES OUT. YES BLOOD. IM HEARTLESS. I CANNOT QUIT NOW AND I HAVE A RACE TO GO ON TOMORROW AND FOR THE REST OF MY YEARS. I CANT WAIT TO LEAVE AND MY HEART IS KILLING ME. EVERY SINGLE DAY WHEN I KNOW IM GOING A DUMB IDIOTIC PLACE, I FEEL SUCKED UP. I WORRY ABOUT EVERYTHING. WHY CANT I JUST BE NORMAL LIKE IN SECONDARY SCHOOL? WHY MY FRIENDS ARE LIKE THIS? WHY AM I LIKE THIS? OUT OF A SUDDEN, I FEEL MY PERSONALITY SUCKS AND ITS LIKE SHYT. YES SHYT. SHYT IS IT. IT IS SHYT. IM HELLLLL IN THIS PLACE. IT FEELS TERRIBLE TO ACCUSE YOUSELF AS A YES SHYT PERSON, BUT I CANT HELP BUT SAY THAT I SUCKED TERRIBLY. YES. SO IM SO GOING TO SLEEP. WAKE UP NEXT DAY. AND SAY SHYT AND SHYT AND SHYT AND WORRY ABOUT THE WHOLE SINGLE CRAPPY THING AGAIN AND AGAIN AND AGAIN. EVERYDAY I PRAY SO HARD THAT IT WILL BE A GOOD DAY FOR ME. I TELL GOD, MAKE THE DAY A GOOD ONE. SOMETIMES HE ANSWERS MY PRAYER. SOMETIMES NOT. GOD CAN YOU HEAR ME OUT? CARVE A PATH FOR ME WHEN THERE IS NO ROAD AHEAD? OH SAVE ME.


可惜不是你。