SHUTING.190392
Being Single, ...
Posted on: 2009-07-11
Posted at: 18:20
Posted at: 18:20
17, single? Am I a weirdo? Listening to all the love songs, just made my heart flutter, pondering whether if I would land into such situation where I'm in love, stuck in between 2 guys, breaking up, unhappy with the new one, thinking of the old one, ... . It seemed hard to runaway from all those feelings that stir up in you when you listen to them. But yet I haven't even experienced any of it.
I'm worried, worried, worried.
I'm afraid I might be a spinster! A woman still unmarried beyond the usual age of marrying. By 21, if I'm not attached, I guess I'll have to grab any random single guy I meet on the streets/church! That's an imaginative scenario! I'm so afraid it'll come TRUE!
I feel exactly like a spinster here, typing how I feel, alone on a beautiful Saturday, wasted by sitting here and staring into the screen, punching keys. How miserable! And nobody I can call out to just chill the day out with me. Living a solitary life, being forsaken at home.
Maybe God says it's not the right time, and I might just break my dream. How easy to do that! Now I know it's indeed not EASY at all to say we can just wait for God to put the RIGHT man into your life, when there is countless temptations luring you into the wrong ways.
Damn it, I can't wait. I'm staring into the space, waiting time to past, waiting God to throw a man into my life. A right one.
One day, I'll be wearing Vera Wang wedding gown, and definitely not on the same day as sinren!
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