Teacher Chen leaving! HAHA!
Sinta told me that her sister tutor is annoyed with us! :D

My new class 0915! We didn't take a lot of pictures! :(
Here's some memories from the past few months that we spent with each other!

The Day We Took Lots Of Photos :


Shuting; Clara

QiQi; ShuTing.
You Is, What's up with that face?!!? HAHAHA

Qiqi spoiling the photo!

Nice one!

:) 0915

Trying to be sporty!

:D

A healthy DiXin throwing the ball!

HAHAHA!

Clara attempting to throw!

YiXin trying to instruct us!


With Ranneth Tan! Super FUNNY!
That day we made a card for him but the
UGLY TRUTH IS:
JieXin acted as an imposter and signed off the name for everyone who weren't present!
She used a pink pen and signed off as Donny! :DDD

A HAPPY 0915 without ME!

With Royston Tan @ ESPLANADE!


With The Guy From Intunemusic school!

JieXin with Huang

YingHui!

With the piano guy! :P for YingHui!

Cute Clara with her most beloved teacher!

:) Grab the book now!

A HAPPY SHUTING WITH AH DONG! :)))

1/3 of 0915! with AH DONG!

WHEEE! :) CUTE

Uh My teacher there!

With Mr Heng, for the sake of a teacher's day photo!
Pretty Random!






I've decided that today is not a good day to visit the school! So I shall not be there!
I'm worried sick for my maths test tomorrow! It seemed impossible for me to finish my revision, yet everyone tells me I CAN! Contradictory... I don't care! I shall try my best to at least score a D? Though deep down in my heart, I'm telling myself FAT HOPE, girl! I hope this whole thing will end soon so that I can, ...

1) Go Bowling
2) Shopping
3) Watch Movies
4) After-church-activities! :D
5) Cell Shopping
6) Cell Retreat! :)
7) Go to Town! :)
8) Chill Out With SR!
9) Christmas! :D
10) K BOX!
11) Beach/ Sentosa ! :D
12) Arcade!
13) Dine-Out!
14) ... & the list goes on and on.
HEY SINREN BEEE! I MISS YOU! :(
Time flies whenever I'm with you!
I'm afraid you will leave me one day!
I pray that everyday you'll be by my side although its impossible!
Let's hope our friendship will continue for a lifetime! Further than what we can imagined!
Cause you're the only one I feel happy and comfortable with! :)
You're oh-so-true to be! :) SO LOVE YOU! :D
Don't forget! There's always always always ME! :D
True Friends are those that never leave you even if you're abandoned by the world!

“When it hurts to look back, and you're scared to look ahead, you can look beside you and your best friend will be there.”


"Many people will walk in and out of your life, but only true friends will leave footprints in your heart."

"Everyone hears what you say. Friends listen to what you say. Best friends listen to what you don't say."

"We all take different paths in life, but no matter where we go, we take a little of each other everywhere."
-Tim McGraw

My favourite quote is the last one! Hope you love it too!




I admit my posts has been turning into TWITTER form! It's real convenience and it expresses what you're thinking and doing, just within a total of 160 words! Amazing! And I've been following Pastor Eugene! Anyway, the main point of this posts isn't about twittering, it's about what's happening to me these few days!

First, How do you feel when you know that your old flame is seeing someone else? Maybe I'm being over-sensitive... But I actually felt jealous! A unexplainable, indescribable emotion in my heart surfaced. It's a mixture of hatred, yet still hoping that maybe he stills remember me. Naive, I know! Exactly! Don't you just hate it when someone you've invested time and emotions in, put your heart into it, can just finds someone else to fill his heart so quickly. Pardon me but F***! OK, to the infinity! Damn it! I feel like hurling vulgarities. So you see, the pain of being in a relationship and suffering from one! It hurts me emotionally. Even though it's not some vivid or wild memories... Once you've put your heart into it, there is no turning back. How much I hate it! I'm saddened that I've not turned back when God has given me so many hints to pull me back, to stop me from furthering and endangering myself. I've led myself into a perilous journey when I myself know that this is not part of God's plan for me. I truly regret it, because I suffered. I did not escape from the pain. I went through it! Still, I thank you the Lord for not leading me into it further, but to stop all these. He made me see clearly through this, and I know He wants me to wait patiently, faithfully. Just towards him! I put my hope in Him. From today onwards, I shall believe that the best is yet to be given to me until I put in my best to the Lord!


I was trying to be pessimistic over my life! Once again! :( I always tried to picture myself in the worst possible scenario! So I stumbled upon LiXin's blog, and read through it! I realised that everybody struggles with life! Though it's somehow long-winded, LiXin showed her desire for God strongly. She did not blame God for all these she is going through, instead she gave thanks and served with passion! I was reading and looking at the pictures she took at her missionary trip! It never occur to me that LiXin looks like an angel! I could see her hearts for the children and she stood out among the people, she shined like a star, for the glory of God! Only then I realized, what matters most is on the inside, not on the outside! She showed empathy and her heart goes out to the people, the disadvantaged! I shall change my thinking and perspectives from this moment! :)

Say hello to goodbye _ _ _ _ _!

I used to be love drunk
But now I'm hungover
Love you forever
But now it's over!

http://twitter.com/shuting92
:) BRIGHT SATURDAY! & I'm stuck at home! :(
I'm so going to take revenge when promos END! :(
"There's a word here about a young man here, probably or so, who is studying and you're on the verge of having a discouraging breakdown, that there is great anxiety in you. And you've been terrified about your studies and your school work... "

DAMN IT! MY SITUATION FITS EXACTLY INTO THIS SITUATION! :(
Guess what! I always miss sermons that are meant for me! :(
Maybe God don't want to speak to me! :(((
Maybe I don't really want to know
How your garden grows cos I just want to fly
Lately did you ever feel the pain
In the morning rain as it soaks it to the bone
Maybe I just want to fly
I want to live I don't want to die
Maybe I just want to breath
Maybe I just don't believe
Maybe you're the same as me
We see things they'll never see
You and I are gonna live forever...
A phrase used to described someone who refuses to accept the truth.

Loh Shu Ting is in a state of Denial. I am someone who refuses to accept the truth/reality.
Holidays arrived like a late Christmas gift. Nonetheless, it is still much of a blessing, to me! During Saturday, I experienced a traumatized experience, having to accept the fact that I sucked at memorizing. Holding that in mind, I stepped into a losing battle. The night before, I cried very hard, it felt like someone stabbing right into my lungs. At that very moment, my lungs went punctured, my breathing seemed to stop. I did something unusual. I hated myself. I hated myself for being stupid. I can't help but bring out the anger and stupidity of myself in me. I needed to release what I felt inside of me. When it's all over, I was hit by the car the second time. My heart flung into pieces. Nothing but to accept the truth and be honest about it.


The very night, I took a flu pill. Eat. Ate. Slept. I did not pray to God. I was too lazy, too engrossed over my sorrowfulness to bother to pray, or ask Him what's happening to me. I didn't attend Sunday service. I had a nice sleep that very day. I haven't slept so well ever since I entered junior college. When I wake up, it seemed like MAGIC. Everything that happened right from the start of junior college seemed to vanish away. I seemed to have forgotten all the pain I went through in my life. Even the pain I can felt every single day from Mrs Lim harsh words that once used to be engraved in my heart, become emptied. The dilemma I used to face when attending floorball. The lessons which seemed like a torture. Everything seemed to have faded away... Even though the memories are still there, it seemed more like a dream to be now. More than never before. Everything seemed like it happen but it's just a dream. It don't matter much anymore because it felt like it never happen before. It feels like a brand new life ahead of me yet what I feel differs. My mind stopped in my secondary school days. The days where never in my life felt so carefree, so innocent, so pure, so worry-free, so laid-back, so relaxed, so myself. I was living a life on what I wanted. A life where unhappiness doesn't exists. Till today, I realized I was so happy back then. I wanted to keep this feeling inside me, and I'm worry as it seemed to be fading away. Today at library, I quickly thought of what could possible make me happy, and wrote them down! I worry they might lost their way. This precious feeling of mine, it's something that I want to find back in my life. Reality hits in, the pursue of the old heart cannot fits into my new life.





The only thing is : Don't Look Back In Anger. ( By Oasis)
I remember crying in the MRT while listening to this song. It reminds me of my journey up till now. I bitterly bit my lips, stand strong, stand tall, and cross the paths which weren't meant for me. I tell myself, I shouldn't look back in anger, and wipe the tears off my cheeks.

When You Were Young- The Killers
(And sometimes you close your eyes and see the place where you used to live..... When you were young)

You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch it now
Here he comes

He doesnt look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentleman
Like you imagined
When you were young

Can we climb this mountain
I dont know
Higher now than ever before
I know we can make it if we take it slow
Let's take it easy
Easy now
Watch it go

We're burning down the highway skyline
On the back of a hurricane
That started turning
When you were young
When you were young

And sometimes you close your eyes
And see the place where you used to live
When you were young

They say the devil's water
It ain't so sweet
You dont have to drink right now
But you can dip your feet
Every once in a little while

You sit there in your heartache
Waiting on some beautiful boy to
To save you from your old ways
You play forgiveness
Watch it now
Here he comes

He doesnt look a thing like Jesus
But he talks like a gentleman
Like you imagined
When you were young
(Talks like a gentleman)
(Like you imagined)
When you were young

I said he doesnt look a thing like Jesus
He doesnt look a thing like Jesus
But more than you'll ever know

This songs actually describes how I feel.
Since Sinren shamelessly requested it, I shall grant her her wish! HAHA!
:) HERE IT GOES: HI GIRL! I MISS U! :P
Sometimes, I wished I could just call you up to meet you, go your house without worrying about the completion of my homework, go out on Friday Night just to chill out and talk about life.
When I felt that I could do so, things weren't the same anymore. Everything around me changed.
When I wanted to step back in life, I was forced to step forward. So I wrote down a list of what I love to do to remember how I felt this moment, and you're the first on my list! :D