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RAINY DAYS!

Posted on: 2009-10-31
Posted at: 18:30

Honey, you're greatly missed by me! ;]

I'm officially immune to H1N1! Nah... Haha just got the injection yesterday! :D Well, it wasn't an interesting trip anyway! :( It was boring, I was left alone! For a moment, I felt I don't belong to ISLE at all! Everyone can mingle with each other, except ME! :( It was really awful, felt something weird inside me, that makes me just want to leave! I'm not someone that likes to feel lonely, but I seriously don't know how to mix with them! Sometimes, I do regret joining it! I'm such a loser :[ ! I had to rush back to school for oral presentation workshop which was boreddd to the MAXXX! I find all the lessons were just a waste of time and money! When it reached 7pm, it began to rain heavily! No choice, though NY is RICH, but they still haven't build a shelter from ny to the mrt! :( Thank God, Jill's father came to fetch! So I hitched a free ride to BISHAN! After that, my mother came to fetch me! :D I slept like at 9pm! My earliest time ever!!! I was so drowy! ... That was what happened yesterday! 10/30/2009

Saturday, RAIN. It was a typical, ordinary Satuday! It actually meant Halloween! I still remembered what happened last year! It wasn't something very nice, ... ! I was supposed to be having fun but nevermind! This year, it's super duper plain BORING! I wonder what 17 is made up of: Promotional Exam, Oral Presentation, MUGGING! Hell yeahhh how FUNNNN is THATTT! I'm leading a boring life, and I want to break loose of this chain!!! :(

I know I never will. LOVE.LIFE.SEX.DRUGS.ALCOHOL.PARTY.

I'm just stepping out of my shell.

Posted on: 2009-10-28
Posted at: 20:52

The thing is I screwed up up up my my my oraaaaal presentation! :(

My expression when doing project work!

I didn't practice, I fell asleep last night! And I feel super awful that I didn't give in my best shottoday! I didn't know the rest of the members put in so much effort, and I gave in like my 10%! I'm not worry, I will put in much effort the next time! :D Tomorrow is the making of Video! Hopefully, it will not strain our relationship further! Seriously, project work is just a way to actually break relationship or find faults with your friends. Sometimes, I do feel I'm a bit loud and straightforward with my ideas. At the same time, they are also not recognized. That's project work, isn't it? Life's goes on... I've meeting Tan Kay Kay for like consecutive days already. I am on the risk of becoming a lesbian with her! Hahaha! :P I'm going for an injection shot this Friday! Actually, I'm super scared of ISLE! I'm afraid of being left alone! :[ It's so easy to feel neglected and all. Pray that after that shot, it will also wash my melancholy memories away... Sail away like a boat! I look forward to after ISLE trip, and I'll be free from every other thing, just to concentrate on my studies alone!

When we make decisions, ...

Posted on: 2009-10-27
Posted at: 23:26

When I was young, I was pure and innocent.

'If one feels the need of something grand, something infinite, something that makes one feel aware of God, one need not go far to find it...

I see something deeper, more infinite, more eternal than the ocean in the expression of the eyes of a little baby.'

Vincent van Gogh

I saved this quote, but I don't remember why I did! I was reading an issue of national geographic about LOVE, and I guessed I find it meaningful enough for me to jote down!

Right now,

Life is about Project Work. Life is about Project Work.

the decisions are final.

No regret, just goodbye!

Should I QUIT?

Posted on: 2009-10-25
Posted at: 19:19

I don't know what I should do!
God is not giving me any reason.
I hate it, I'm not happy with it!
That's why I should quit it!
Simple reason, big theory behind it!
I'm seriously sad about it! I don't know why!
Sometimes I think F sucks, because i feel F-ing lonely inside,
and the people don't give a damn. People don't change.
And people will say, then "You can CHANGE!"
Seriously, if I change, I will find myself a hypocrite. :(
Don't act like you're not when you're one!

Am I Ready?

Posted on: 2009-10-22
Posted at: 00:52

I LIKE THIS PICTURE FOR NO REASON!

I'm naive, I'm stupid.

I hate Friday!

XOXO!

Posted on: 2009-10-20
Posted at: 00:36

I'm addicted to Gossip Girl! XOXO! :P
Sinren And I are going GAGA over it! :D HAHA, can't help it!
I'm too influential! :)
I love Nate! ^^
Now, I type like a Gossip Girl! ;)
XOXO!

Finally, my exams are over over over! But there is a problem with me right now! I can't adjust back to the days ( night study days ) to be exact. I have been slacking, going out, just simply rotting and rotting and rotting! It seemed like I can't hold myself back again! All over again! I used to be strong, carefree but now I feel tied down by every thing in life. I'm back to the old ME! which I can't exactly defines who I am too! I love to talk but yet I go back to a life where I find people that are not familiar with me, and I don't really want to talk a lot too. Well, not true either, I blend into surroundings pretty well, it's not that hard after all. Blogging is like talking, so hey whatsss up! I'm sure my blog hates me for hurling nonsensical rants about life! I have a lot a lot a lot of ideas and weird thinking about how life works. For a moment, I might live a life full of passion. Next, I might drown myself in alcohol thinking life sure sucks to the core. Seemed like a roller coaster ride! Hopefully its just another one more year for me to work hard before I release everything inside me! Party and everything! :) XOXO just joking! I'm sure I would be more troubled than ever thinking about my future, and how I'm changing! This world sure sucks, but I guess there's always something to look forward to it! A happy ending always happens in fairy tale! & that's how I'm seeing myself too!

School's a torture!

Posted on: 2009-10-19
Posted at: 12:43

O-M-G, O-M-G!

I'm so going to hate Tuesday and Friday again! I'm actually surprised at how I survived my days through that F! Yes! :( Why did I choose it in the first place? Little did I know that I will hate it so much in the second place. Whatever! I'm pissed and irritated! I love school, but not F. :(((

What am I suppose to do!?!?! The fear of stepping to kallang, the fear of taking that stupid bus which I don't even remember the bus no. , the fear of facing the team, the fear of training, the fear of coach, the fear of lousy skills, the fear of whatever it is! My choice, my life. I think I'm hating this slogan! I hope exams lasts forever! Anyone, please help me make the right choice! :( I'm paying to ride a roller coaster ride! Damn I-T!

Posted on: 2009-10-16
Posted at: 23:23

THIS IS IT! :D HAHAHAHAHA!
HELLOS, HOLIDAYS!
HELLOS, PROJECT WORK!
HELLOS, SHOPPING(CHEAP)!
HELLOS, BOWLING!
HELLOS, DIET!
HELLOS, MOVIES!
HELLOS, FASHION!
HELLOS, FUN!
HELLOS, SLACK!
HELLOS, KBOX!
HELLOS, ... OWW I CANT THINK OF ANYTHING RIGHT!

BYE! BYE! THIS IS IT! =D!
HA HA HA!
LET'S PARTY!

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& F it! :(
results come out next week!!!
I just received this horrible news!
& it's extremely disturbing to my ears!

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I SERIOUSLY NEED TO SLEEP AND REST WELL. NIGHTS!

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