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2011.
Posted on: 2011-10-09
Posted at: 21:39
Posted at: 21:39
Oh yes, typing this in 2011! It has indeed been a roller coaster ride for me. Looking back at all these ehem childish posts since 2006, there have been good and bad memories. But, they are so precious that if I could live my life over again, I wouldn't change a single thing. Well, maybe some but majority I would still keep it! Anyway, I've turned boring. Maybe I should go out and make some ah-lian friends. JUST/JK.
Nothing seemed to be the same anymore. Well, changes are inevitable and growing up is part of accepting the fact that people moves on. You can change nobody, neither nor anyone can change you. It's like a blink of an eye. Everyone is in a different place right now.
There are so many changes, that I don't even know if I am part of it.
There's this song that goes, 'Everybody's changing and I don't feel the same...'.
Nothing seemed to be the same anymore. Well, changes are inevitable and growing up is part of accepting the fact that people moves on. You can change nobody, neither nor anyone can change you. It's like a blink of an eye. Everyone is in a different place right now.
There are so many changes, that I don't even know if I am part of it.
There's this song that goes, 'Everybody's changing and I don't feel the same...'.
Throughout the years, I find myself becoming more and more indigenous. I don't belong anywhere. I've moved out of somewhere, yet I can't find an identity about who I am, and how people perceive me as who I am. I'm so afraid to speak my mind. I'm so inferior about myself. It seemed that in university, everybody strives to be the most excellent. I'd never thought myself to be where I am today. And now that I am somewhere, I don't feel happy. I am suppose to be happy, because I am at the top of hierarchy of this education system. But I don't even know what I want in life. I'm just aimlessly striving, trying at something I'm not good at. Now that I'm here, I'm again at a loss at what to do. I'm really frustrated with myself, what I'm doing. Every single day, I pray I could be doing something different, but I'm not. Because of all these surrounding problem, it gets really lonely, and I'm not even eager to meet new people, make new friends. I find myself with no hobby and everything. No cca, no friends, lousy cap... Everybody's hanging out with their new friends, but I have none. All my old friends have gotten on and proceed with their own life. And there's me hanging down there, doing the same old things, alone. I eat alone, read books alone, etc... Feeling really lonely. My phone doesn't even vibrates anymore. If necessary, it would be for a purpose. Nobody really cares that much. Maybe, we only need a few to make us whole. Appreciate those that comes along, and be thankful towards those that left. Maybe, I've been trying so hard to prove myself, to try to be different. In the end, it all blows out.
Labels: changes, friends, life, myself, people
LOSTXD
Posted on: 2006-11-30
Posted at: 00:50
When people are lost, what will they do?Posted at: 00:50
I feel exhausted yet unable to sleep!
What';s wrong with me!!!
Anyway Im going out with friends tomoroow to watch HAPPIE FEET!
Yeah, that kiddy animation but it has really good reviews.
Although I'm those kind that dislike animation, but I'm gona give it a try.
Who knows the outcome might turn out unexpectedly.
It reminds me of the darn compo! Miss teng... always give this as an option which is...
something you which turned out unexpectly for you... BULLSHIT!
I'm quite sick with compo nowadays!
Winter.Summer.Autumn.Spring.
I think I just gave the wrong piece of information.
Ignore me!
HAHAS who am i talking to... pure crap because right here I'm typing this and nobody's gona see it.
I like it ok... oh i might prefer this! lalalalalalalas!
I just realised blogger has invaded my life!
It acts as a medium for me to communicate and to express what I feel.
In singapore, its so hella restricted! So little things to do with...
If i'm in another country, I might not be typing this entry but doing other things.
America has only 19% of teenagers typing their daily life.
They has much things to do, other than singaporeans teenage... typing this entry.
They have parties. They can express. They can do what they want. Their parents are open.
I shall stop grumbling how unfortunate I am because I'm not.
At least I know I'm very safe.
I just realised there is nothing to worry about.
I'm thinking too much!
I shall live happily and make a history in my life page!
That's cool!
:)
我要写下英雄的一页! ! !
Labels: life
SISTER BIRTHDAY BASH!
Posted on: 2006-11-19
Posted at: 00:50
Ok! My eyelids are heavy! ehehehs! By looking at those pictures, I guess you could figure out what it is! Train your picture whatever !!! BLAHS!Posted at: 00:50
CUTE! can be eaten ok!
* these pictures are randomly arranged*
god, pardon my ugly face! =X
HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY SISTER!
YOUNGER SISTER! HAPPY 11TH BIRTHDAY!
She requested a party yeah... then since its her birthday, we had to give in.
The preparation was like z Z z z.
There are so many darn things to do. I think it took 3 days to prepare.
First, I had to wake up at 9pm for her because if i sleep late and when the guests come, I would look ugly. :(
From yesterday, we started packing all the goodie bags. :)
EARLY in the MORNING, everyone started tidying the house.
Seriously, this is the first time my 'HOUSE' is holding such a big event.
In the past, our home is for sleeping or a home sweet home.
We never invited anyone to our house before because we seldom cook at home, so if u want to cook, I bet you will not be able to find any utensils or food.
In this ever first kinda big event, everything is like MISSING!
We went to buy all those pots, ladle, bowl spoon.
By 12p.m, just when the steamboat was about to start, we realised that the wire isn't long enough. I had to walk all the way to shop to buy. By that time, we also found out that we din even buy the cake. =.=! CAKE!!!!
Papa and I had to drive to NP to buy cake.
Once we reached home, everything was kinda ready. ... ...
I will skip the eating part.
My sister's friend came and you know this girl. She was outcasted or what. Childsh act by childish children. I think they will realise how it is when they grow up. They kinda ignored the girl, or shun her. I had to console the girl. -.-!
I had no choice too, nobody is like about my age. :(
STEAMBOAT EVENING!
YOUNGER SISTER! HAPPY 11TH BIRTHDAY!
She requested a party yeah... then since its her birthday, we had to give in.
The preparation was like z Z z z.
There are so many darn things to do. I think it took 3 days to prepare.
First, I had to wake up at 9pm for her because if i sleep late and when the guests come, I would look ugly. :(
From yesterday, we started packing all the goodie bags. :)
EARLY in the MORNING, everyone started tidying the house.
Seriously, this is the first time my 'HOUSE' is holding such a big event.
In the past, our home is for sleeping or a home sweet home.
We never invited anyone to our house before because we seldom cook at home, so if u want to cook, I bet you will not be able to find any utensils or food.
In this ever first kinda big event, everything is like MISSING!
We went to buy all those pots, ladle, bowl spoon.
By 12p.m, just when the steamboat was about to start, we realised that the wire isn't long enough. I had to walk all the way to shop to buy. By that time, we also found out that we din even buy the cake. =.=! CAKE!!!!
Papa and I had to drive to NP to buy cake.
Once we reached home, everything was kinda ready. ... ...
I will skip the eating part.
My sister's friend came and you know this girl. She was outcasted or what. Childsh act by childish children. I think they will realise how it is when they grow up. They kinda ignored the girl, or shun her. I had to console the girl. -.-!
I had no choice too, nobody is like about my age. :(
STEAMBOAT EVENING!
My relatives came to our house. EAT EATING ATE EATEN.
My mother and I quickly rushed to SHOP AND SAVE to buy items so that the food is enough to cope the night people. In the end, we went to NTUC to buy. :)
OH yeah, I saw MERTON ok. I always see him at NTUC sia. At first, I wanted to take a photo of him, but I was afraid he would see. ARG!
I walked my cousin around chong pang. We took photos. :)
Second round of STEAMBOAT!
EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT EAT! all the way!!! GOGOGO! :)
Now its 1.10am... but my parents friends are still here, so I'm still awake. :)
BAHS!
SORRY MEI MEI!
I din buy you any present!
I will buy you when I have the time.
OMG! What a sis I am!
ok i promise! :)
Labels: life
it all sucks!
Posted on: 2006-11-17
Posted at: 18:45
Posted at: 18:45
f you cannot see the words by the dinosaur, it's actually:
DEAR CUSTOMERS,
Tf you find any food or vegetables if poor quality,
please help us by throwing into the bin.
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Sorry for the poor quality, as there is a very solemn and bastard news.
My photoshop expired. That's all.
17th of november-
A few hours later, I proudly announce it is my sister birthday.
She wanted a party or what... . Girls at this age tends to be more childish. That is an opinion to me. I kind of hated party cause I think it will be very noisy, and the whole house will be turned upside down. You have to clean the mess youself! We went to GIANT to buy all the necessary food items for a steamboat. YAY! So we will be eating tomorrow! I have no friends. IDIOT MORON BASTARD. I feel fcuked up right now. CCB. YUCKS! I have no idea what friends meant. BYE!
I once thought life was meant to be bright, happy, and whatever positive words you could throw in.
I realised I was so wrong.
Like it has never happened.
If you ever think with a clear mind, life is left nothing but an empty shell.
For many times, I felt I'm left with nothing.
Nothing, nothing, still nothing.
I wish to throw my life away, lead a new simple life.
Don't asked me if I missed anything.
I would request to ask my family along.
I would not regret making this decision if I was given that chance.
Life is as complicated.
I'm very sad, disapointed to receive complains.
I wish to stay in my empty shell forever.
Live like there is no tomorrow.
Live like there is no sadness.
Live like there is nothing left.
Live like today is the last day.
Labels: life
HECTIC DAY!
Posted on: 2006-11-16
Posted at: 19:42
X)Posted at: 19:42
Z Z z z ZZ zzZZ zz!
I went into a deep sleep for 13 hours! Whoots I finally woke up and manage to upload the photos.
YAH,yesterday. OLQ, she said she wanted to sleep overnight, but she slept at 3am.
Give her a slap!
I slept at about 4.30am-spending my time watching show's concert! I teared at the last part! It was so TOUCHING.
I tried my best to wake up to eat mac at about 8.20am... ... .
Long story anyway!
The results are out...! Nothing much to comment on anyway.
We went to tzy huoy house to slack for awhile before walking back to OLQ's house.
At there, we watched the CCHY video.
It was damn lousy, plus all the prefects acting.
Don't really bother about it since I only left 2 years!
I feel like a skeleton.
This is a picture of the road while we are on the way home.
After that, we decided to go to SSC to eat pizza hut.
Gross noodles anyway.
Rachel Lim called to ask to go to her house to play.
I rushed home to change, and met LSF.
Afterall, we just played and drink some kind of potion drink, actually it contains 0.5% of alcohol...
I was so in a 'sleep'mood, i slept at her house while they played.
It seems to be very peaceful but actually its sibei NOISY!
This is RACHEL LIM!
Before I could finish sleeping, I had to attend my cousin birthday party.
At there, I finished GOONG last episode!
TADA! =)
My father, sister and I walked over to his friend house to see.
Impressive yeahs, I love rooftop!
:)
My sister is living in her world. Her bear... birthday falls on the same exact day as my cousin.
She bought her a cake and gave her a braclet as birthday present. She has gone bonkers. I think this stupid fever would go off after she reach sec1.
YEAH! AFTERALL, I CAN SLEEP LE!
=)
Labels: life
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